I have been in a dilemma over the past few days as to whether i have to get back to work or not. When i think about going back to work, i feel good as i can give or buy the best for my daughter or can do things freely for her. But at the same time, the thought of leaving her behind, makes me feel guilty.
I certainly wouldnt want to leave her with my MIL and have decided to leave her at my parent's house. But i feel that am burdening them unnecessarily when its my responsibility to take care of her.
The main reason why i decided to get back to work is because of financial independence. Am not allowed to do what i want for my daughter at my hubby's place and everytime i need something i have to ask. A lot of questions arise which makes me feel uncomfortable as i have never asked for money, ever since i graduated. Hence i felt, that if i work, i dont have to ask anybody.
I was working a couple of years back in a good MNC and had a very good rapport there and was on good terms. But i had to quit as there were domestic issues at hubby's house and nobody to take care of my daughter. Hubby didnt agree to putting DD to the day care.
I thought about working from home options, but i dont know which ones are legitimate. To be honest, going through a bad phase right now and at times i feel my rational thinking has stopped.
i want the best for my daughter...